Fathers and Children (1903)

This historic book may have numerous typos and missing text. Purchasers can download a free scanned copy of the original book (without typos) from the publisher. Not indexed. Not illustrated. 1903 edition. Excerpt: ...go away to-day--or may I stay until to-morrow? "--" Why go away? I did not understand you--you did not understand me,"--Anna Sergyeevna replied to him, and thought to herself, " And I did not understand myself either." She did not show herself until dinner, and kept pacing back and forth in her room with her hands crossed behind her, halting from time to time, now in front of the window, then in front of the mirror, and slowly passing her handkerchief over her neck, on which she still seemed to feel a burning spot. Shejisked herself what had made her "try to get," to use Bazaroff's expression, his frankness, and whether she had not suspected any thing...." I am to blame,"--she said aloud, "but I could not foresee this." She fell into thought, and blushed, as she recalled Bazaroff's almost fierce face when he had rushed at her.... "Or? "--she suddenly articulated, and halted and shook her curls.... She beheld herself in the mirror; her head thrown, back, with a smile on the half-parted, half-closed eyes and lips, seemed, at that moment, to be saying something to her which reduced her to confusion.... "No," she decided at last, --" God knows whither that would have led; I must not jest with that; after all, tranquillity is better than anything else in the world." Her composure was not shaken; but she grew/ sad and even wept once, not knowing herself why, only not from the insult which had been dealt her. She did not feel herself insulted: she felt herself, rather, culpable. Under the influence of divers confused sensations, the consciousness of vanishing life, the desire for novelty, she forced herself to toe the appointed mark, made herself look further--and beheld beyond it not even a chasm, but a void.... or a horror. XIX Mistress of herself as...